Explanation of what this is

There are hundred's of waiters that call themselves actor's. That guy making your soy frappucino is a musician. You know that because he tell's you almost daily. So from this day forward I will call myself a writer. I may make money on the television and radio but I am choosing to call myself a writer.
From what I can tell in order to call myself a "writer" I need to do one thing.......write

Ive been blessed to have so many jobs from MTV's Headbangers Ball , WCW Wrestling,NASCAR TV & Radio host, Creator of some of the most succesful nightclubs in L.A mainly the CATHOUSE,3 years on Loveline,Talk Radio Host, reality shows from Daisy of Love, Charm School and the Rock of Love Reunions. Ive seen some of my friends become the biggest rock stars in the world. I have interviewed 1000's of the most unique people from sports and entertainment. Ya the boasting is making me sick too.
Ive also lost everything, filed for bankruptcy and had to get a job as a car salesman just to keep the lights on. That is what I do and what I have done but that is not who I am.

One more thing. Kid's or very sensitive folk should not read my blog's just in case I say something a tad risque.

Monday, January 2, 2012

No really I mean it this time

Those that are long time RACPAC. (sorry if your here you are one too) know that I write some big ass blogs. I did it for years on My Space and have even included some on previous blog postings right here. I'd appreciate if you checked them out. I pull no punches here and was already told that opening up as much as I did regarding my prior drug use may have hurt a possible gig.

 Let me tell you this place is my therapy. I dig writing. Here I'm not the radio guy. The guy that hosted Headbangers Ball,Vh1 Reality shows or that dude thats been working in Nascar for 9 years. I'm just a guy that's a little fucked up. I came to a big realization this past week.

          I never had a mid life crisis because I never had a mid life. I have been living for decades honestly believing I'm in my early twenties. What happened this week is all of a sudden I realized I'm old or at least getting older. I'm dealing with a wide range of emotions and fear. I plan to share much of this on these blogs as well as tell you some cool stories from the past.
I know there is a way you can subscribe to this blog and I would really appreciate if you did.

A real update very soon.



  1. Best thing to do? Let it all out! You'll feel much better afterwards bro!

  2. I just wrote a blog post about you: http://chaosidontknow.blogspot.com/2012/02/not-to-spoil-ending-for-you.html

  3. R- I just read your 2 most recent entries and instead of leaving a long comment here- I responded by writing about you and to you in my 2-7 blog post.

  4. Writing is an awesome way to express yourself and let it all out. Bottling things up will start to eat you alive or even worse you end up blowing up. All that matters is what you think of yourself.